I don't feel like smiling today. My stomach is in knots with the constant thoughts about the future. Our future as a family. How are we going to continue living this way and when will the other shoe drop? My daughter had another outbursts this morning. It was a bad one but thankfully I kept it contained. I managed to redirect her attention and aggression towards me...again... and away from her brother. When we as a family weather these storms together it strengthens our bond as a family. I can't help but worry about when their patience will run out. I'm the glue that's holding everything and everyone together...barely. I say that not out of arrogance but out of a clear understading for the role I play in this chaotic living situation. Something's gotta give. Despite prayer, meditation, google and countess doctor visits we still dont have answers or a solution. For now I'll just take five deep breaths so I can recharge my mental battery and make it through the re